So its been awhile.

I know I've slacked at the log lately. Sorry to all of my frequent readers. I really just need somewhere this evening to vent. It's almost 11pm and I'm full of tears and emotions are off the charts. I'm sure it has to do with all the hormones.. Go figure. Well all I've wanted is Jeff's attention and affection today. So I wanted to get my nails done because it's been about 3 months and heck I think that I can do something for myself since I did go thru child labor and haven't had any me time. Well that went right down the drain as soon as I mentioned going somewhere by myself for an hour. I think he's afraid of not knowing what to do if he's crying. Anyhow, so I go on this cleaning frenzy I mean cleaning frenzy because I don't know what else to do to remove the disappointment and anger.. Then I work and ask if he'd like to play the Wii and he denies me on that too. I just dont get it.. So I offer to watch a 2 year old of a fellow co worker because her husband is home on rr and they wanted to go to a movie. So I offered to go for a long walk.. Well we walked to the mail box woohoo. and then We get back to the house and the television comes straight on to this whale wars show that he watched for 4 hours straight.. gahhhh I cooked a nice dinner and he didn't even say thank you it was good hun or anything his face was glued to the tv. I mentioned it twice and just figured it was a waste of my breathe. Gah I wish I could just smack him on the back of the head and tell him to wake up... Then after dinner while I'm doing dishes Uriah wakes up screaming and he's so into the doggone television to get up and grab him. So not only do I have the water running in the kitchen but my boobs are screaming at me because of Uriah.
To top this off the family picked up the little girl around 10pm and jeff gets a text from a fellow co worker asking him if he wanted to play tiger woods golf on the internet and guess what he goes out of his way to get connected to the internet to play. When I've asked more than once to play the Wii with me today and now I'm waiting up for him. I can't go to sleep by myself I so wish I could I would of locked him out of the bedroom. LOL J/K!! Boy I feel better I know that this may of been to much info but really needed to get it off my chest and there's no one up in tx and no one up in Hawaii. I'm tired and have to get up every 2.5 hours with Uriah. I wish all of you sweet dreams and God bless.


I love him

Kattie